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Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent.

Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent.

Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil?

Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?

Ok.   Let’s break this down:

“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent”

Of course He is able to prevent evil.  But who is causing the evil-man or God?

“Why doesn’t God feed starving children in Africa?”

How is it God’s fault, if a leader of a country doesn’t feed their OWN people?
Isn’t THAT what a leader of a country is SUPPOSED to do?
(God isn’t the leader of this country, so how is it HIS fault people are starving?.  Especially WHEN every country IS able to feed their own people? It’s the corupt leaders of these countries that are responsible for their OWN people starving-not God!)

“How Could God let someone be killed?”

How is it God’s fault, if someone kills another person?
(God didn’t kill the person.)

“Why was my baby brother killed in a car crash?”

How is it God’s fault when a driver runs another off the road & a child dies?
(God wasn’t driving either car.)

Why are you blaming God for what MAN is doing?

Man is simply not taking responsibility for his OWN actions, (once again), & is “passing the buck”, by blaming God for their problems!

If God stopped everything bad from happening, how would we grow?


Do you really think that God DOESN’T want us to learn how to adapt to various situations?  That we who DO know Christ Jesus, should never learn?  What kind of “loving” Father would that be?  Would you want YOUR father NOT to heach youi how to deal with unexpected situations?  If you are a father, would you not teach YOUR children how to deal with unexpected situations? That is not the God of the Bible, nor the God I know.  Knowing God, involves us trusting God to help us THROUGH unexpected stiations-NOT always avoid them or remove them!    If we always avoided them, we never WOULD grow!  We never WOULD learn! The job of a loving father is to TEACH his children-not let them remain ignorant & helpless!

Then we have this:

“Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.”

No He isn’t.

Man has not accepted responsibility for his own actions, ever since Adam & Eve refused to take responsibility for disobeying God’s command not to eat the fruit of that tree.  We can’t know God, until we take responsibility for our own actions & stop blaming God for what WE choose to do.WE & WE alone are responsible for our OWN problems–NOBODY ELSE!  Don’t you think that it’s time to stop “passing the buck?”

Also: there is NO PLACE in Scripture where God EVER says that nothing bad will ever happen!

Not one.

I need to say something about people accusing God of causing natural disasters.

God DID use nature in the OLD TESTAMENT.  But there is not ONE SINGLE REFERENCE in the NEW TESTAMENT!


There is NO ONE who can show me ONE SINGLE Scriptural reference in the NT, where God EVER used nature as punishment.  (The Book of Revelation, cannot be included, because those events haven’t happened yet.)

At least in much of the world:

Why are there hurricanes only one time a year?
Why do we have 4 seasons, that have been consistant for countless millenia?
Why do earthquakes only happen in certain parts of the world?

And on & on.

God has set nature in strict, UNCHANGING patterns, that have not changed for tens of thousands of years.

What happens is nature acting within the bounds that God has set.  If God hadn’t set these kind of controls, nature would run wild!  There would be hurricanes all over the globe.  Tornados occuring in every part of the world.  There wouldn’t BE regular seasons!  These are God’s controls that keep nature FROM running wild!

Then we have this:

“Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?”

From Man’s disobedience-Not God

Man CHOOSES to disobey God.
God doesn’t force ANYONE to obey OR disobey Him

Never has-never will.

This is CHOICE.

There WAS no evil in the Garden of Eden when God created it!
No deadly bacteria.
No deadly animals.
No disease.
No Sicknes.
Nothing EVIL or Bad,

as seen here:

The Bible clearly states that EVERYTHING that God ever CREATED, was created in these passages.

There is not ONE SINGLE reference ANYWHERE in the Bible that God EVER created anything else after this.

If what you “say” God “created”, is not in this passage, then He did not create it.

It should also be noted, that there is NOT ONE SINGLE Biblical reference, where GOD says that man will EVER have a life with no problems, so those who accuse God of causing problems for us, has NO SCRIPTURAL BASIS WHATSOEVER for saying this!

And finally:

“Then why call him God?””

Because His IS-whether you want to believe it or not, does not change who God is.

God doesn’t change REGARDLESS of what ANYONE thinks about Him..

He IS the great “I AM”!

The Truth About MySpace!
I have been a member on MySpace, (under various names). for around 2 years.

I have been using it for finding a companion-so far with no success.

But the thing that I really found out about MySpace, is that there are a great number of what may look like potential mates, are in reality, mostly from Africa-particularly from Ghana or Nigeria.

Now, many will say that I am predjudiced. No I am not. The church where I used to go had a large number of transplanted Africans, & they were the nicest people you could ever meet.

But when you are looking online for love, (especially on MySpace), you have to be very, VERY careful of who you are talking to.

I have been orginizing my files on my computer, & coming across something interesting.

For those of us who use Yahoo IM, there is a feature where you can keep records of every conversation that you have on IM.

Although I wish that I had discovered this feature earlier, I have been keeping record of every conversation that I HAVE had on Yahoo IM, & come across the following facts:

1. Except for 1 person, everyone has lied on their profile about where they live.

Here are my totals of who I have talked to, since I have been keeping record.

10 of them wanted money. (Virtually all from Nigeria or Ghana, even though their profile said that they lived in the United States)

18 were from Africa, (although I could not determine what country), even though they had United States listed as where they lived on their profile.

33 were from Ghana, (as above)

8 were from Nigeria. (As above)

I know that there is virtually no way to check where these people REALLY LIVED, but a great deal of caution SHOULD be taken, when looking for love on MySpace.

As seen from my evidence, (and I have the actual IM conversations to back it up), One should NEVER trust any woman on MySpace, (with me being a guy), without first finding out where these woman REALLY are.

It would save a lot of heartache.


Have you ever wondered what goes on in the mind of a suicidal person? Well, I would like to tell you what happens, at least in my life, because I am suicidal.

On July 27th, I was bike riding, & was “T-BONED” by a truck. Since that day, I have been going through a depression that not that many people can really understand.

Everyday, for at least 4-5 months since I was hit, to say my life is a living hell, would be something of an understatement. Every waking moment, in my mind, I am screaming in pain 24/7, because I think I want to forget being hit. The problem, is that I cannot REMEMBER being hit! I don’t remember anything from the moment I WAS hit, to an hour or so AFTER I was hit, when I woke up in the hospital. I think that is why, inside, I am screaming in pain-because I want to forget & can’t!

But that is not all. It is not just the internal screaming 24/7, that is making my life a living hell. It is also that am crying, the constant internal crying, 24/7, that I hurt, & want my life to end. Nobody understands how I feel, & I have never been more alone than I am right now. I can’t afford any psychological help, I can’t even find any low cost help, & I very much feel like that the world doesn’t give a damn about me. I am a nobody to everyone & everything. Outside of my dad calling me once every few months, (he’s a widower, & I’m a bachelor, so we don’t need to talk to each other every week, because neither of our lives are that interesting.) If it weren’t for us talking every few months, my younger sister & brothers wouldn’t even know if I were dead or alive, because if I hear from them once or twice a year, i am lucky. They all have their own families, & can’t be concerned what is going on in my life. And before anyone says anything-yes, i HAVE made more than my share of overtures to them, to keep in contact, but they simply aren’t interested.

Then there is the financial end as a result of what happened. Though I was not at fault, that doesn’t mean that there still aren’t the medical bills, that have resulted from this. Mine are currently over $40,000 at present, & if the settlement that the personal injury lawyers I hired isn’t enough to cover their fee & my bills-I AM SCREWED! So I have THIS hanging over my head as well!

Does anyone have any questions now, as to WHY I am suicidal?
Why I want to end my existence?

I was so close today to actually suceding in killing myself! I got a call from billing services, for the constant blood tests that I have to have. 3 days after I got out of the hospital, I had to go back, because the pain in my left leg, (the side i got hit on), was about 30, on a pain scale of 0-10! I made it to the hospital, (somehow), & told the ER personal what was going on. They did an ultrasound on my left leg, & found this huge blood clot in my lower left leg. So, it’s back into the hospital for another 4 days, & put on blood thinners. I think that it was this time that the depression that I am feeling, really started to hit me. I really DId want die. I was so hoping that this clot would kill me.

Well, obviously, it didn’t, but I have been on blood thinners since I got out of the hospital, which means that there have to be constant blood tests, until my blood stabilizes at a constant thickness, so there won’t be any danger of a clot forming again, even though I wish it would, & it WOULD kill me.

Now, I know, people will say, that it is selfish for me to want to kill myself. You know what? “I DON’T CARE!!” I don’t care about anything! I just want the psychological pain that I am in to end! I have had it! The way things are going, since I am always getting closer & closer to suceeding, I am really hoping that I will be dead by Christmas time.

I can only hope.

I have decided to do a rather unusual post here.
On July 27, 2009, I was bike riding, & got “T-BONED” by a Chevy Suburban.

While the medical bills from this are bad enough, (& it wasn’t even my fault!), I would like to focus on the psychological effects of what has happened to me at this time.

I had lost 60-90 minutes of memory from this accident, & that is part of my issue here.

Since that accident, I have been experiencing bouts of extreme despair, & hopelesness. I have lost so much interest in things that I used to love-especially about spending so much time online.

I used to spend 6-10 hours a day, EVERYDAY, online, because I only work 12 hours a week, (when there IS work for me).

But it is this memory loss, that I think is the cause of why I have lost interest in all that I used to love.

I can’t say for sure, because I am no psychologist, but I am really beginning to think that this memory loss is the source of all my problems.

That period of time, between the moment that I was hit, & the time I remember regaining consiousness in the hospital is inaccessible to me, because I don’t remember anything IN that time period!

But it has been driving me nuts, anywhere from simply being depressed, to more than a few major thoughts of suicide! (And I have already have gone 2/3 of the way in preparing for this possibility, by crushing up the pills that I will use, to make swallowing them easier, & videotaping a suicide note).

It has been affecting my sleeping habits as well. I have found myself going to bed at 3-4pm & sleeping till midnight, & then waking up & not being able to get back to sleep.

So often, I have woken up in absolute pain, (not physical as such, but, internal, in my mind), that I couldn’t do anything by almost cry out-“I want to die!” “Just let me die!”, or “I want to forget!” “Let me forget!”

But the question comes down to this:

If it IS the supressed memory of being hit that I want to to forget-how can I forget what I can’t remember?

That is what I am dealing with, & which will probably be the LITERAL death of me, because I can’t find anyone to help me deal with what I have been going through, just as I have had no one to help me deal with the aftermath of being hit, when I was hospitalized, or in dealing with the financial end of this accident! I have been all alone throughout this entire mess!

I do have personal injury lawyers working on getting a settlement for me, but I have no idea when that will be finalized. All I can do is hope that it will at least cover their fee & my bills, (which at present are approaching $40,000, at the time of this writing!)

And maybe that is also why I want to die. Or maybe it is a combination of not getting enough to cover my bill, the memory of being hit, or not having anyone to help me deal with all of this mess.

I don’t know.

But all I see is my own death looming in the distance, but moving closer all the time.

I feel like my time on this earth is drawing to a close in the near future.

IF,(and more likely, WHEN), it happens, I will welcome it.






I am sure that it will come as no surprise to those people who are members of the (used to be #1), the popular MySpace, that there are some real “gutter scum”, on that website!

The one disturbing fact about that social site, is that is is populated by scammers, virtually all from Africa!

Now there are those who will say that I am racist.

No, I am not. There were a great number of transplanted Africans at the church I used to go to, that I was very good friends with.

I have been a member of MySpace for quite some time, looking for a potential woman to share my life with.

But so far, I have encountered well over 2 DOZEN OR MORE, scammers, virtually all from Nigeria!


they all have some “sob story”, about how they need money for one thing or another!

And don’t be fooled people, these scum are experts at making it believable.

I know, because I was scammed myself-out of $150!

Now that may not sound like very much money, but when you consider that the most work that I can get is 12 hours A WEEK, that is a great deal of money!

I have to laugh at some of the things that they come up with in their initial introductions that they send you. Particularly when the say how “handsome” you are, are hysterical!

So as a service to all of you, I include these names & e-mail adresses of those who both are scammers, (the vast majority of these ARE), and potential scammers. For any of you who do belong to MySpace – BEWARE!

These people CANNOT be trusted!
(Sandra Bill)
(Ktie henson)
(Karolina Nelson)
(Don Gugbrr)
(Nancy Anderson)
(Rose Michaels)
(Clara Love)
(Rhonda Wakeman)
(Jessica Mandel)
(Karen Rego)
(Cathy Maine)
(Sandra Sexton)


If there is a very eloquent introduction sent to you, the odds are VERY GOOD, that they ARE Scammers!

Not always, but the majority of the time, they are.

To protect yourself from them, when you talk on Instant messanger with them, follow these steps:

1. Introduce yourself, & give the name of the city you are from. (Never give your last name!)

2. Ask them where THEY are from. (This is an innocent enough question, & will usually NOT arouse suspicion).

If they say that they are from Africa, or over in Africa:


More often than not, they WILL ask you for money!

It WILL happen!

Be careful!


Living in Madison, Wisconsin, I get so sick & tired of hearing how we need to “educate” our children of the dangers of drugs, drinking, ect.

When will people realize that it is NOT MORE education that these kids need!

Back 20-30 years ago-YES, to educate kids WAS needed!

But this is the information age, people!

Even kids as young as junior high, (& I dare say even younger), are fully aware of the dangers of drinking, drugs, smoking, ect. The media is flooded with ads about these, (in magazines, radio, & tv).

And then we have the web!

I don’t need to tell anyone how much time these kids today spend online!

There is more information about the dangers of drinking, drugs, smoking, ect, online than can even BEGIN to be comprehended!

These kids KNOW the dangers of all these! It is NOT education that they need!

What they need, is really very simple. They need to be taught JUST ONE simple principle that my parents taught me:

“You know what is right. You know what is wrong. You know what is good for you. You know what is bad for you. You have a brain-USE IT”!

People so ofthen blame the problem of these kids, of what is wrongly called-“peer-pressure”.

Peer pressure is nothing more than an excuse for saying:


That is the REAL REASON that these kids get into so much trouble today.

This is ALSO how my parents brought me up-with this philosophy!

This is for ALL parents of kids out there, particularly young kids!

Now people will say: “Well what about being popular with with the other kids”?

The one thing that i have learned while i grew up, is that popularity with the other kids, is nothing but a bunch of B.S.

Neither myself, nor my younger siblings, were EVER popular at school!

But we found those other kids, who thought & felt just like we did, and as a s result, none of us kids EVER did any drugs, smoked, (even though my dad smoked for years when we were kids), underage drank, & (I can only speak for myself here), never had premarital sex!

We all turned out just fine.


Because we were brought up with the ability to think FOR OURSELVES!

Because we were brought up with the ability to to do what we knew WHAT WAS RIGHT, instead of what everone ELSE was doing!

Now, I fully acknowledge that this kind of upbringing will not work for everyone, but don’t you think that the majpority of kids WOULD turn out right, if more parents actually took responsibility for their kids, instead of “passing the buck” tro anyone else?

Just a thought.


For those of us who have even an inkling of what is on the Web, it can be every confusing as to what is good, & what is bad.


As a public service to everyone, I would like to offer MY best of the web!

This is by no means a comprehensive list, but just some of my favorite sites!  I am in NO WAY receiving any money for listing these sites, nor do I any connection in any way WITH these sites!


Let’s rock & roll!

The frst site that I have would probably be of interest to any millitary people.

It is the journey of an enlisted Navy man, & his efforts to be released from his enlistment, on the grounds of conscientious objection.

The site is called:


It is a riveting insiders look at the inner workings of the navy!

From the sublime to the ridiculous, we have this:


In particular, this part of the site is the best:

I think you will be able to figure it out!

Now, in the realm of music online, there is an incomprehensible amount of music available.

One of the giants in music is ITunes.

Even if you don’t have an IPhone, or IPod, you HAVE to download ITunes!

It is a free download at:

Just as far as different radio stations to listen to, ITunes Can’t BE BEAT!

Just click RADIO, & you will come up on a listing of all different genres of music.

There are literally hundreds & hundreds of both online & commercial radio stations that you can access from here. 

No matter what type of music you like, you will probably find what you like here! 

Not only that, but if you go to the ITunes store, & click Podcasts, you will literally find hundreds of podcasts on all different subjects, including a wide variety of different musical styles-almost all of them being FREE to download.  I have downloaded close to 4,000 of them to date!

Here are some other sites to check out for a wide variety of music to listen to: (Dance radio from Chicago) (Progressive, House, Trance  The” hardstyle” channel DOES have some rough language, & is NOT appropriate for under 18!)


Everyone who has a computer, HAS to have wallpaper for their computer!

Most sites have a good variety of different sizes, (the average size being 1024×768) resolution  

Some sites I would recommend are:

Now, for those of us with High resolution monitors,, (mine is 1280 x 800), here is the site that I really like:

Again, these are just suggestions, but I do my own small part in helping to wade through the confusion of millions of websites, with my humble suggestions!



Some of you might be familiar with comedian Jim Gaffigan, (Beyond the Pale, King Baby).

Well, being a “Twitterer”, I follow Jim’s “tweets”, & some of them are hilarious.

I will continue to post them, as I get them!

(I could kill myself, for not thinking to do this earlier!)

These are all tweets that I have received from Jim.

1. “Why do we look, after we have used a tissue? What do we expect to find? ‘Look, a pocket watch!'”

2. “Has anyone used the term more dumb”, & not sounded more dumb?”

3. “Seeing someone in their underwear is either arousing or terrifying. One of the reasons that I never wear any.”

4. “I think anyone who buys Extenze should not allowed to vote. Proof that it doesn’t work: the name Extenze”

5. “Did the person who invented the tofu dog ever actually eat a hot dog?”

6.”At night: ‘Yea, Jalapenos!’

In the morning: ‘Boo, Jalapenos!'”

7. “I think that it’s weird when personal trainers are out of shape.

‘You should do some sit-ups.

I never do, but you should””


Sure, it was a marathon nap, but I’m still proud of myself. I’m glad that I carb loaded beforehand.”

9. “Can’t believe they named a piece of excersize equipment the treadmill. ‘Oh, I can’t wait to get on the treadmill. That doesn’t sound boring.'”

10. “The winter vest is really the thong of coats.

Of the 2, I probably look better in the vest.”

11. “Has anyone wearing a neck brace ever NOT looked like they were faking it?

‘It’s awkward, but the insurance settlement will be worth it.'”

12.”Just had some laundry done at the hotel.

Now, I can’t afford to send my kids to college.”

13. “Eating crab is too much work.

They are the pistachio of seafood.”

14. “Parents are like comedians.

I don’t assume they are crazy, but the odds are pretty good.”

15. “Fall is here. It is one of my favorite days of the year.”

16. “This morning stuff happens waaaaaay too early!”

17.”The hayride. It’s a bumpy uncomfortable ride AND I get to sit on hay? Sign me up!”

18. “If I were president, all beer would be served colder”

19. “Is it me or are steakhouses an inch away from being a strip club?”

20. “Had to throw a bottle of urine and a dead rat in the garbage. Just another day at the park in NYC with my kids. (wish I was exaggerating)